done for the night

but still can't believe I'll be meeting someone who has three of the love of my life (who I lost)'s organs.
absolutely mind blowing.
and just got the drunken phone call from Torti saying he and JP may drive down.
these were two of Erik and I's best friends.
JP being Erik's roommate of what would have been two years and best friend of one more year than that.
Torti being the one who lives close to him at home in NY and who's family graciously flew me up to NY on their plane and accepted me into their homes on Thanksgiving while we had to be there for the following day's ceremonies for Erik.
I am so fucking blown by the reality of this and how it is actually occuring right now.
I don't know many details of who or how this man found me and my family but I am beyond grateful.
okay, Time for bed!!!!
oxxoxo